THEY'RE HOPING SOON MY KIND WILL DROP & DIE BUT I'MA WAVE MY FREAK FLAG HIGH!

Favorite Child Syndrome Strikes Again...

Mon, 09 Jun 2008 02:33:34 GMT

So I admit to having my screw ups vehicle wise in the past... But this is a bit ridiculous!

I didn't even get my DL till I was 18... I went rebellious, and put my first car, a 93 Buick Skylark that cost maybe 2500 used... in a ditch drunk, now that I'm 24, I understand what a stupid kid I was... My replacement car for totaling that one, after months of living with a friend because I was kicked out of the house for wrecking the car, and NOT narking out the person who bought me the alcohol...... was a rust bucket 89 Chevy Corsica for $800... to get me to and from work, understandable after what I did. Unfortunately while I was busy rebelling with alcohol and pot I also got into meth... I was still going to community college but slowly flunking out from ditching to get high... Eventually I rode that corsica so hard I killed the drive shaft- is what my dad told me... Because that car crapped out as well. At that time I was getting ready to transfer from community college, away from home and drugs to a university... so the corsica was replaced with a 91 Buick Regal....... probably another $2200 used... And away I went to school... and failed miserably at school... because getting clean from meth starting over, and trying to accomplish university social work major when your own life isn't that straightened out is REALLY FUCKING HARD! That regal had some problems from the beginning... But even tho I was failing outta school and ended up living on friends couches for a while... I managed a fulltime job, and that car lasted trips home every weekend when I was in school, and when I was living on friends couches, I was driving from belleville to edwardsville every day for the job I got while I was in school living IN Edwardsville....and still driving home on weekends on a fairly regular basis... Towards the end of my living in belleville I started having problems with my regal breaking down... I had it in and out of the shop I think about 4 times in the matter of a year or so, paid over a grand in payments all together all by myself to fix it for that year, before the car finally crapped out bad enough i needed my dad's help... At this point I was living in my OWN apartment in edwardsville still working the same job!

I think this is a good time to introduce my sister. 18. Bright future ahead of her, high honor roll student about to graduate, and skip over community college straight to big girl private university in another state! Got HER license when she was 16. Daddy gave her his 97 Chevy Lumina when she started driving, and bought himself a 00' Jeep Grand Cherokee...

When I began having serious car problems to the point I could not pay them anymore, I had to rely on my dad to fix the car, 2 hours away... I was lucky enough to have friends who carted me around to and from work, and to the store or where I need to go, the whole time I had no vehicle... The car was broke down for some time, and then he said he finally had it fixed I could come get it... I paid a friend of mine to drive me to pick up my car, got there, and it was not running again! So I was given my dad's jeep to drive home with STRICT stipulations not to let anyone ride in it, drive it, not to hit anything, not to "tear it up like i did the regal", etc, pretty much everything down to how to breath in it.... It caused lovely fights with my boyfriend whom I LIVE with, who was not allowed to drive the jeep, even tho at the time, he had NO car, and we had both been relying on MY BROKEN REGAL, and then on my friends who helped us get where we needed to be! Finally, after months of being careful with the car for fear of my life, the day came when he brought the regal here FIXED AGAIN, and took the jeep back home. The next day I sat broke down on the side of the road yet again, bitched at by my father like I had done it on purpose, and had to have it towed to a shop AGAIN, where I had to again have my dad pay the bill :( and get bitched at for it... When my dad returned home, my sister was given the jeep as her car instead of the perfectly fine lumina she had.
I think when I got the regal back, it lasted maybe a couple weeks if that, before I again had to make a phone call, tow it to the shop again, and get bitched at by my father more... At this point I was lucky enough to have some friends loan me their extra car for my boyfriend and i... an 86 Caprice with bald tires, but a car....
The regal was fixed again, and my friends let us keep the Caprice for now so we wouldnt have to both rely on the ONE very unreliable car...
At this point I can't remember if there was one last time that the car had to go to the shop, or if that was the point the front doors stopped opening from the outside... and then the drivers side door stopped opening all together, and the passanger front door only opened from the INSIDE... and the transmission was going out, so every time i slowed down, or stopped at a sign or light, i had to put it in neutral and back in drive to go, because it was not staying in proper gear anymore.... But after I called my dad and told him I was going to put myself in debt and get a car loan cuz the regal wasn't safe, after a year of trying to fix it, and a year before HE ever tried to help me fix it..... He finally decided that since he had given my SISTER the jeep to drive, and HE had his own vehicles, that I could have HER old Lumina that had been sitting there.... Gee finally, I get a reliable form of transportation!? When I drove down there to trade cars, and drove the lumina back... i didn't know quite what to do with a vehicle I DIDNT have to climb in to the back seat to open the passenger side front door, and climb across to the driverside, to get into! And I REALLY didn't remember what it was like to drive an entire trip in the car, without taking it out of drive!!!!! NO NEUTRAL!

Now you remember my sister, right? The Superstar Kid! and remember the rules I was given about driving the jeep on loan... the not hitting things... and tearing cars up.... Well since this is the point of the story where I get my SISTER's hand me down Lumina car, as a replacement car... It's a good time to tell you how when I went to trade cars, I was given the run down on this vehicle... the things that i needed to know... Like how Sis broke the cup holder... and when you hit a bump the ashtray will fall out, and there is a screw missing on the glovebox, so when u open it, it falls open and half ways off.... and the dash pieces are caulked in, yes, thats right caulked in, because Sis lost control of the car on some gravel and slid it in a ditch, so the shit popped off... This is the inheritance, I the child who is so blatently obviously the only one who is hard on vehicles... and now gets the pleasure of eventually fixing the front strut that seems to be going bad, I wonder how that happened.....

Anywho, remember how sister dearest inherited the Jeep, basically because she just wanted to drive that instead of the lumina after I had it... *her words to me, originally*

Sometime last week, I called my father, SIMPLY because the lumina was due for an oil change, and I wanted to double check his anal instructions for how to care for HIS car, so I wouldn't be held at fault for anything going wrong on this one. AND when I had the regal I had all kinds of cool bumperstickers, and when I was given the lumina I was told I wasn't allowed to put stickers on this one.... SO I wanted to check with him if I could put a memorial ribbon magnet on it instead! Well the phone conversation ended with me gaining a new asshole, and in tears, and hung up on....
Why you ask? Because Sister Dearest totaled the jeep! AND I GOT YELLED AT LIKE I WAS THE ONE WHO DID IT!!!!!! and what happened to her for totaling the jeep I was lectured so throughly and strictly about? Well the insurance totals out the jeep, and she gets to go pick out a '03 Santa Fe SUV that totaled up to be around 10,000 after taxes.... Because we wanted her to be in a safe reliable car when she goes away to school..... Boy if I knew it was that easy to get a new car, I would have totaled the jeep myself when I had so many car problems with the regal!!!!!! But I guess things don't work that way for the not-so-favorite siblings of the world.

You have got to be kidding me!

Tue, 11 Mar 2008 02:29:07 GMT

So I was just on MSN.com looking up latest news as I do almost every day...

And apparently the Vatican has added to the list of sins.... It's no longer the seven deadly sins....

Apparently now, pollution, drugs, and genetic research now earns you a spot in hell, right along with lust, gluttony, greed, and the other "7 deadly sins".........

So be prepared, because I'm pretty sure the entire population of the world is going to end up in hell by the time the Vatican is done telling us what is sinful in our lives!! Save me a seat! I'm screwed!

Once upon a time...

Fri, 28 Oct 2005 04:11:11 GMT

.... a guy on myspace sent me a message that said "Hi Hotty"... nice, and said guy has a Doors video on his page which is cool, so he gets added to Friends list.... Skip forward to NOW. Guy sends a message asking if I want to "um maybe would you want to go out and do something some time or something...?" ME: like do what where huh *Thinkning- yeah, highly doubtful buddy* only to be confirmed when he says he "doesn't have a car"
Ah, the way to a lady's heart, is when she becomes a taxi.......................... *rolls eyes*

Lonely girl...

Tue, 13 Sep 2005 04:00:29 GMT

I'm a bit bored... and lonely.....

I hate days off... I have nothing to do... I sit alone with these cats... One of which I dont really care for and the other one who may or may not be sick............ This sucks such a large amount of ass, there isn't really a measurment of how sucky it really is....

So yes, anyways, LONELY. Me. Sad. Just realized I have a 40 of sminoff... I think I shall go drink it... I hope Ceasar doesn't decide to stop by tonight... I dont feel like hiding out in the apartment....... *cuz I dont want to visit either*

GOD IM BORED THIS SUCKS> IM SO FUCKING LONELY!

Mon, 22 Aug 2005 00:19:25 GMT

If I dont get a decent raise soon... I'm looking for a new job, back home.... and that's all there is to it.

Random Update...

Sat, 20 Aug 2005 09:15:45 GMT

I think I want to watch the new reality show: Breaking Bonaduce. I admit it.

Im about to go to bed...

The other night something reminded me of J: at the strip club Nadia did her thing on the pole to Linkin Park "Breaking the habit" Hmmm is that odd that a nakid lady on a pole surrounded by mirrors reminded me of J... JUST KIDDING... it was the SONG obviously......... geeze you freaks!

"Good is Good" by sheryl crow.... good song.

and with that said, im off to bed. aka the couch. the rest of my life updates are generally on myspace..... im too tired to write much on here.

A sad day for the computer addict...

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 22:55:28 GMT

The day has come where I must pack my computer... It is a sad day... I am a bit bummed today... I must bid lj ado for now....... God this kinda sucks.

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 07:35:48 GMT

Randomness- when I tried "Rebecca" instead of "Becca" I was 89% gay, um ok why does my name change my gayness? *scratches head*

randomness...

Thu, 11 Aug 2005 03:53:19 GMT

Have I ever mentioned, I like John Cusack movies? well I do... most of them... and I would like to see Must Love Dogs, That is my random whatever for the day.......

And also I wanted to vent disappointment... in the process of packing, i checked all my dvd cases as i put them away... and Alas.... I open up None other than "Win a Date With Tad Hamilton" is empty! EMPTY! I watched that movie ONCE! And I asked Jenn and Vanessa and neither one of them has seen it... so what the fuck!? Someone came into our apartment looked around, said, computer- NOPE, TV- NOPE, DVD player- NOPE- Win a date with tad hamilton- OMG IM TAKING THAT!!!! O_o I'm so sad..... where oh where did my dvd go?!!?

well im going to watch friends... and eat, and finish up my shnapps....

Psyched for shinedown AGAIN!

Wed, 10 Aug 2005 01:24:27 GMT

Well hell! I was excited before when I heard like, one and a half minutes of the new song.... But once again, I must profess my love for MYSPACE! I heard the whole song! "Save Me" GOOD STUFF, I FUCKING LOVE IT... I'm posting the link.... Kinda for J's benefit, cuz when she heard the clip she said it didn't sound like the shinedown she was used to.... I think the whole song does way better justice then the clip even started to do.... so.......... J, listen to the whole thing, Im fucking psyched! I seriously love shinedown more than most bands i have ever been into!! http://www.myspace.com/shinedown and I <3 MYSPACE!!! God, I can't wait till they start touring again this year.... I've made a handfull of frineds on the board, some almost local, some who travel EVERYWHERE to see da boyz, most who have met them all at least a few times... and ALL of them keep saying NEXT CONCERT YOUR GOING WITH ME!! Thats sweet, cuz that means next time I see Shinedown I may very well be seeing it from the side stage, or front and center, depending on who i hook up with.... for the concert i mean... "hook up with" and talking about getting back stage should not be used in the same sentence! Ok well i just had to take a break from my room.... and im glad i did.... Well, my room is looking pretty empty i think the most of the shit thats left is in the rest of the apartment, or im keeping with me... or my computer... the room itsself is almost done completely... so thats cool. Well off to check a few things, and then i'll be back to the mess, i really need to make it to my parents... but eh, i am so drained, i have to though, cuz my clean work clothes are there, FUCK i forgot that part.... shit... gotta go....

The word of the day is BOTHER...

Tue, 09 Aug 2005 06:40:19 GMT

Wish I was too dead to cry.
My self-affliction fades.
Stones to throw at my creator.
Masochists,
To which I cater.

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be.
I'll keep slipping farther.
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'till it bleeds.

Wish I was too dead to care,
If indeed I cared at all.
Never had a voice to protest,
So you fed me shit to digest.
I wish I had a reason;
My flaws are open season.
For this I gave up trying.
One good turn deserves my dying.

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be.
I'll keep slipping farther.
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'till it bleeds.

Wish I'd died instead of lived.
A zombie hides my face.
Shell forgotten with its memories.
Diaries left,
With cryptic entries.

And you don't need to bother;
I don't need to be.
I'll keep slipping farther.
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'till it bleeds.
You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be.
I'll keep slipping farther.
But once I hold on,
Once I hold on,
I'll never live down my deceit...

*so this is how I was feeling earlier... I think I started these updates and whatnot when i got home hours ago.... but then i got to drinking, and talked to emily, and felt a bit better... now all i have is a headache, and a need to go to bed, but the moods are not as awful as they were.... I just want to post one more thing... I was listening to the stone sour cd on the way home the whole way... its good stuff, i forgot how good... but anyways, one more lyrical add, and then im off to bed, i have to go to work in a matter of hours.... O_o *

Omega- its like a poem i think... i dont know its cool...

What a skeletal wreck of man this is.

Translucent flesh and feeble bones
The kind of temple where the whores and villians
try to tempt the holistic tomes

Running rampant with free thought to free form
in the free and clear
And the matters at hand are shelled out like lint at a laundromat
to sift and focus on the bigger, better, now

We all have a little sin than needs venting
virtues for the rending
and laws and systems
and stems a rift from branches of office
do you know what your post entails?

Do you serve a purpose
or purposely serve?

Wind down inside of your atavistic allure
the value of a Summer spent
and a Winter earned

For the rest of us there is always Sunday.
the day of the week that reeks of rest
but all we do is catch our breath
so we can wade naked into the bloody pool
and place our hand on the big black book.

To watch the knives zig-zag between our aching fingers.

A vacation is a count-down
T minus your life and counting
time to drag your tongue across the sugar-cube
and hope you get a taste

what the FUCK is all this for?! (What the hell's goin' on?!)
SHUT UP!!

I could go on and on, but, lets move on shall we?

Say, you're me and I'm you
and they all watch the things we do
and like a smack of spite
they threw me down the stairs -
haven't felt like this in years -
the great magnet of malicious magnanamous refuse
let me go and
plunge me into the dead spot again.

That's where you go when there's no-one else around
its just you
and there was never anyone to begin with now was there?

Sanctomonious pretentious dasterdly bastards
with their thumb on the pulse
and a finger on the trigger

CLASSIFIED MY ASS! thats a FUCKING secret and you know it!

Government is another way to say
Better
Than
You.

Its like ice but no pick
a murder charge that won't stick
it's like a whole other world
where you can smell the food
but you can't touch the silverware

hah, what luck
fascism you can vote for
isn't that sweet

and we're all gonna die some day
'cuz thats the American way
and I've drunk too much
and said too little
when your gaffer taped in the middle
say a prayer, save face
get yourself together and (see whats happening)
SHUT UP! (FUCK YOU!)
FUCK YOU!

I'm sorry I could go on and on but
it's time to move on so...

Remember you're a wreck, an accident
forget the freak, you're just nature

Keep the gun oiled and the temple clean
shit, snort and blaspheme
Let the heads cool and the engine run

Because in the end,
everything we do
is just everything we've done.

Oh my....

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 06:37:28 GMT

Drugs, Sex, and Death! Oh My! by AngelicManson666
Name
Favorite Band
Your Crush?
If you were a drug, you'd be...	Mushrooms
Favorite Drug	Marijuana/Pot/Weed/ect.
Why You Started...	To make all your problems dissapear
Sexuality	Heterosexual
You've had sex ...	47 Times
Your Going to Die...	Killed by a serial killer
On...	March 26, 2029

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Sun, 07 Aug 2005 06:11:57 GMT

Your Suicide.. by Konstantine
Your Name/Username
Favorite Number?
Favorite Color?
Gender?
How will you commit suicide?	Pills + Alcohol (fun!)
How many tries will it take?	69
When will you commit suicide?	March 19, 2015
What will your suicide note say?	"Mother, Father .. where did we go wrong?"

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Ok Ok, morbid I know... Blame a girl on myspace, and the morbid curiosity my bummed out mood gave me.... But shit man.... Pills & Alcohol... Mother and father blah di blah blah.... They coulda at least given me something CRAZY unrealistic for my life, like i dont fucking know jumping in front of a clown car and "the voices made me do it..." wtf... pills & alcohol... mommy and daddy.... wtf

I think I'm kinda gonna miss living in Edwardsville...

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 03:48:09 GMT

Alright, so I know that the whole reason I am even in the mess I am in, is my own fault and no one elses, all I had to do was Oh go to school and do my work... It wasn't that hard... And so lately I'm feeling pretty disappointed in myself for being such a loser...

I just went to the gasstation to get ciggs... And it kinda just made me a bit more sad to be leaving, I am going to have to save up money so I can find a place in Edwardsville of my own... because I really do like it here... I have gotten to know my way around fairly well, I feel at home here... which is more than I can say for a lot of places, including my own HOME..... And there are several establishments of which I am a regular, and I like the feeling of people knowing me when I come in ya know.... Like I went in to get my ciggs, and the one boy that is always there, told the other guy *who i begged for smirnoff one night after midnight* to card me >teasingly< but they both see me so often between getting ciggs and smirnoff they know me... and anyways it amused me...
and I'm kinda bummed out, cuz I don't wanna be a bum living on tim and kristy's couch, even though kristy told me yesterday- i can stay for as long as i need to..... cuz she likes me... But still I just wish I had grown up a little bit more in my life before I got to this point...............

I must admit I have improved my life on so many levels in the past couple years, the last year especially..... but it makes me sad that I have not grown up on other levels..... The next few months are going to be quite a test... I need to work on a lot of areas of my life right now... I'm 21, and have so little to show for my 21 years... at least very little positive accomplishments... and this makes me feel like quite the loser....

There are so many things I have done in my life, that when I look back on them, I think wow how did I get HERE.... So many things that I have done- that at one point in my life I NEVER would have thought I would have done.......... and so many things I wish I HAD accomplished and have not yet done....

Ah, nevermind, I must get back to cleaning... and whatnot... But I just had a burst of many emotions... and not many good ones... and I had to vent a bit, because I am feeling quite sad, and frankly I think I'm a bit of a loser right now. O_o

Sun, 07 Aug 2005 02:51:50 GMT

What Icons are for you?(Thank you for #1!! Please check out my other Memes!!) by ladyallie
Username
Favourite Colour
Sex
Your Love icon is...
Your Sad Icon is...
Your Happy Icon is...
Your Angry Icon is...
Your Food Icon is...
Your Animal Icon is...
Your Random Icon is...
Your Cartoon Icon is...
Your Sexy Icon is...

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I like the results of this quiz, well some of them... like The Notebook icon, jesus i love that movie... and the I hate everything about you... yeah that is so me.............. and TINK! I <3 Tink!

Sat, 06 Aug 2005 20:37:21 GMT

Well I called off today from work... And I feel kinda bad! I didn't feel well today...... I think I stressed myself out so much over needing to be packed up and out like NOW! That I didn't sleep well or anything...... and at about 7:40ish I took a look at the schedule, to see if anyone else was going to be in soon enough that they could survive without me, and Krista was coming in at 10:30 so that only left Andrew on his own for an hour and a half without me coming in.... and I figured being a Saturday it might be busy but he could handle that..... and being that I covered Wednesday this week since dawn quit, and pulled a double thursday since samantha quit, that I was entitled to call off for the first time since i have been there..... I know they are gonna be mad I'm sure... But I never do it.... so they can deal... I cover for EVERYONE else, where's my break?
Well off to check myspace, and then off to pack up shit! If I get enough done this evening, I might take a trip to my parents to drop off boxes... Might- in the sence that I have to be at work TOMORROW at 8 in the morning... goodbye all............................ busy

I <3 SHINEDOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 19:59:01 GMT

SO I was on da board today... checking out random links people have posted....

And in the midst of articals and whatnot... i caught a clip of a new song coming up!!! "Save Me" FUCKING GRRRRRRRRRRRRRReat! *tony the tiger style!* it's fucking sweet! And I am soooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo fucking excited that I had to post about it, and make everyone else witness new shinedown greatness!!!

http://www.thebucketheadshow.com/cc-common/feeds/view.php?feed_id=511&feed=/audio_feed.html&instance=1&article_id=26791

That is where you can listen to the clip of "Save me" which GOD I LOVE! I can't WAIT till they start touring again!! And till the new record comes out, you better belive I will be in the store the DAY it comes out!! I already have the live dvd ordered!! Man, thats gonna be better than jenna porn! jk but damn it will be good!!! especially if Brent has that red/black hair in it... cuz damn i think that was hot... but he doesn't have it anymore so who knows when they taped it....

ANYWAYS!!! Shinedown has also done a cover of "Tie Your Mother Down" for the Queen tribute record, yes QUEEN- And I think I may have to get it... cuz it's good stuff, Queen is classic stuff first of all... and Hello, Shinedown! plus joss stone is on it... and breaking benjamin... among others... http://hollywoodrecords.go.com/killerqueen/ in case anyone is interested....

Although Im sure Im the Only shinedown freak sitting here totally psyched over all this!! ok I must go get a shower and try to make it to the bank... I slept too long today... of course!

What I spent the past thirteen and a half hours of my life doing!

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 03:32:46 GMT

So I was scheduled today at work from 8 to 330... The day started out lovely, being that andrew also thought he was supposed to be there at 8... so we BOTH ended up having to stay, and of course that meant we got to take turns doing Becky's bitch work.... So the WHOLE day im all like 330 330 330 and then oh about 3 ish rolls around and Manager dawn asks me if i will stay and work in specialty with her, because a girl up and quit, and there was no one who could or would cover... and i was like i have never done it before, i wont be any help, but she was like i dont care... so since I like her, i agreed to stay till 8... well right after that I had the most lovely customer come thourgh my line, the kind with a lot of coupons, who is really anal about them... Like one was for a "free bone" thing, "UP TO 3.49" The "Free" bone actually cost 3.99... so of course she was all like HEY BLAH BLAH BLAH, and Im like HEY FUCK YOU READ! only i didn't say that, but Being that i just agreed to pull a double i wasn't miss.suzy sunshine about it.... Well then, the lady leaves and what not.... ONLY to turn around and come BACK... because apparently on one of the coupons worth 1.09... I accidently hit 0.09.... so OF COURSE the cunt wanted her ONE DOLLAR BACK!!! And Im like whatever fine, so i call someone to open my drawer to give it to her... And I give it to her and whatnot, and she is in a HUFF... and takes off to the back of the store, and I looked at the next customer and line, and was like "that lady is about to go complain to a manager on me! I guarentee it!" and like vented to the NICE lady, because I'm all like, wtf i JUST agreed to pull a double, its been a long day, i dont need her to go telling the managers BULLSHIT on me, Im obviously not THAT bad of a worker, to get employee of the month and what not! well the nice lady was all like SHE WAS SOOOO RUDE, dont you worry! (she was writing a check) and she was like, if that lady DOES say something, you have my name I will Vouche for you that she was a hag! You call me! And Im like thanks... but what can i do for real right........ so anyways... I FINALLY pull my drawer... and I am stocking books, and Brigette comes up to me and she says "that lady..." and i said "Complained about me" and she was like yeah... well it happens that brigette was up there, so she knew the lady was a douchenozzle, so she really didn't care, but she told me that lady rushed up to her IN HER FACE, and was like THAT GIRL IS THE RUDEST GIRL I HAVE EVER SEEN, AND I AM NNNNNNNNEVER SHOPPING HERE AGAIN!!!!!!!! And Brigette was like, Uh huh, well that's your choice, and i will say something to her... and the lady stormed out. And thats when Brigette came to tell me, and she pretty much laughed it off, so it was no big deal, but I was like, I hope she DOESNT shop here EVER again, cuz NEXT time I will tell her she can shove her coupons up her ASS!!!! ALL THAT OVER ONE FUCKING DOLLAR PEOPLE! ONE DOLLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! WTF! CUNT! and that was only HALF way through my day at work! so that was FUN! cuz not only did I stay... but I was SUPPPOSED to leave at 8, right... and no, dawn had me stay with her till the store was totally closed, which we were out at 9:35, because yours truely busted ass all fucking day, and dawn was having a bad night, so i didn't mind to help her out, at one point she was so pissed and venting to me, i swear the woman had tears in her eyes! so i didn't mind staying for HER benefit... *that and the fact that next check is going to KICK ASSSSSSSSSSS! because i covered YESTERDAY for a casheir that quit, pulled a double TODAY for a specialty girl that quit, and MY hours on top of that....* but rico suave, that jack ass is about to get KICKED IN THE BALLS *NOT punched in the face!* Because HE PISSES ME THE FUCK OFF!!! He was there today HALF as long as me, and did HALF as much as me, and walked around ALLLLL mother fucking night, like are we done yet, can i go yet, is this done, are you done doing this, and I'm like LOOK PRICK FUCK OFF YOU COCKFAG!!!!!!!!! I HATE HIM! like dawn was having me do the deposits to close, and EVERYONE comes to the office, to ask if they can leave since THEY are done! And by everyone I mean, pettrainer lindsay, night cashiers laura and kristal, night specialty girl Jo who i stayed to help, AND Rico Suave! And Dawn was like, NO None of you can leave till BECCA leaves, shes been here the longest, and THEN they are like, well Becca leave, We will finish this! and im like, thanks but i really dont think YOU writing the like 2 numbers i had to finish was going to make a difference.... But all those fuckers were MAD cuz they couldn't leave till I did, and im like FUCK YOU, and being that Dawn stuck up for me like that and whatnot, and gushes her appreciation for the help, i dont mind doing it so much....... but its shit like that that makes me not want to do it... when i end up doing EVERYONES jobs ON TOP of mine, and they are all like, well hey can WE go.... NO NO YOU CANT DAMN YOU! YOU LEAVE WHEN I DO MOTHERFUCKAS!!!!!!!!! so thank you to dawn.... and BOY AM I GLAD IM OFF TOMORROW!!!! ok, so im going to go drink some smirnoff... and blog myspace now..... so tata all! That is my good long vent about my day at petsmart, and hell that isn't even everything! But i gotta save SOME shit for the blog! haha.

BITCH SLAP MOTHER FUCKA!

Thu, 04 Aug 2005 03:52:49 GMT

WELL BLOODY HELL.... I JUST TOOK THAT QUIZ, BUT in the copy and paste I messed it up.... ah oh well..... I got BITCH SLAP. look it up on kimbers if you care........... SMIRNOFF OH HOW I LOVE YOU>>>>>>> BUT BOY IS IT HOT IN HEEEEEEEERE!

Did you know...

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 03:37:52 GMT

That Chow Chow dogs were originally breed by the chinese *i think* TO EAT....

Quite literally, for "Chow".............

Random bit of trivia for the day- brought to you by Animal Planet

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 23:09:21 GMT

Random thought of the moment: I must find a copy of the version of "Tie your mother down" that Shinedown did on the Queen tribute album.... isnt' that a bit odd.... tribute to Queen.... Interesting.......

Pop a top again...

Tue, 02 Aug 2005 22:37:45 GMT

I think my drinking streak must come to an end, I can't afford to keep buying it, if I want to continue eating and whatnot... which I kind of like the food... SO i think I may be laying off the smirnoff for a bit...

Today was an awful day at work... for no particular reason, other than maybe emotional discomfort. It wasn't even like I could blame it on being TIRED. Because, I went to bed at 930 last night! Anyways... I really have no spectacular Petsmart news.... Well- cashier dawn- who owes emily a big chunk of change quit, so that is a bit of drama... And today Andrew got the paper work for team lead position... so alas, I am not recieving it... We were all pretty sure including Andrew, that I would be getting it... But Obviously I didn't... I was almost disappointed, But then I was like, WTF, I didn't really WANT it anyways, and ANDREW wanted it so bad he could TASTE it... so I'm GLAD they gave it to him! I don't want to deal with it! Let him have the responsibility... I'm not cut out for doing more work, than the bare minimum right now.... So whatever... I'm glad he's happy... and belive you me, he was! But eh, it's cool, cuz I'm still like second string to Andrew, and me and Andrew are pretty decent friends, so really I am still in a pretty good place, position wise...........

RANDOM* OH hell, I was about to say, I HATE launch, cuz they just played one of the Good Charlotte songs of the record I can NOT STAND- Cronicals of Life and Death....... BUT- I skipped it, and they followed it up with THE DOORS Break on through..... so they are back in my good graces.

SO ANYWAYS... Um What else did I want to write about... I'm feeling Really down of late.... with no particular reason... I wont really go into it today, Just because I dont feel like writing it all out... Maybe later....

Tonight's agenda consists of, CLEAN CLEAN PACK PACK CLEAN CLEAN!!! I need to be out SOON... so tonight, I really must call Tim, and discuss moving plans... Figure out what I'm doing about my stuff, and whatnot... And really get in gear... so after I am done with myspace and lj, I do belive I will be hitting my room for a good clean... *And have decided it is going to be a Doors marathon, cuz Break on Through, was just REALLY good for me just then...* (Ooooooooooh. Blue October... How random.... Ok so my launch is like, really kissing my ass for sucking with the good charlotte!) Anyways, its going to be Bust some Ass night....... I really need to get some shit done. Well, I dont much feel like writing, so I suppose I am going to finish off this here smirnoff, get some food, write emily back on myspace... And HIT THE ROOM.

Thats all I have to say for now. BYE.

It's a mirical....

Mon, 01 Aug 2005 23:19:58 GMT

I knew I shouldn't have gone to the fucking grocery store!!!! The ONE motherfucking day that I am OFF work, and ALL i want to do is lay on the fucking couch and watch tv!! And for the FIRST MOTHERFUCKING TIME in like TWO GODDAMN months. i decide, grocery store, go get some food.... I leave for TWENTY MINUTES, i come back and princess is planted on the futon WHERE MY BLANKET WAS! watching sweet sixteen on the goddamn tv..... WHAT HER FUCKING TV IN HER FUCKING BEDROOM DOESN"T FUUUUUUUUUCKINNG WORK!?!?!?!??!

God I hate my roommates.... I can't wait to trade these FUCKERS in for some new annoyances....

Fuck this... im going to go lay in my room apparently.... where I DONT HAVE A TV....... what the fuck... i mean seriously.... when you have your OWN bedroom and your OWN tv in your OWN bedroom.... what is the goddamn appeal of the living room!?!?!

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 04:46:07 GMT

I got a picture of Xander Kane today! A really cute one!

Sun, 31 Jul 2005 04:42:06 GMT

Why is the tv so damn loud?

Why does my internet explorer keep shutting down on me?

Why have I not accomplished cleaning up my fucking room?

Why am I so fucking moody!?

Why does ROBERT never talk to me and J anymore!?!?!

Random thought of the night- Why haven't I listend to this cd in soooo long. It fing rocks... "The Road Between" is a good fucking song!